First Meltdown

It was an hour after I wrote the blog that contained info..i did not want to share..that i realized i shared it...and people are going to look at it..and what are they going to think...and how they going to act? im a crazy woman. why would i share such a deep inner thing with everyone..God, why am i doing this???????

then i was a little better, after talking at dinner with eli...its okay it will only get better from here...and i need all of you to get through this!!!! ugh its going to be a long journey...